Car-nar-von was the conclusion of my month-long residency with Carn, Caernarfon (March 2018). The residency looked at me in search of the real town. I wanted to investigate the town and put on a performance that connected to a family holiday with relatives that concluded with us be dumped in Bundaberg, Queensland. Three days’ drive from flight home in Sydney.
I found the real town not just the tourist part around the castle. Such a wealth of history friendly faces and a will to survive. As the work documented on my take over of the Carn Instagram. The words I performed at the end were a trilogy of response to My Uncle who played the main part in leaving us who we have never spoken to since (this happened in 1996). As part of the residency, I approached the local community to take part in a photography workshop.
The three poems raise the question of longing distance and unanswered questions. I also invited Welsh Musician and performance poet Sian Miriam and poet Rhys Trimble to contribute. I found it pretty brutal to perform. Sometimes wearing your heart on your sleeve can have positive effects, it’s just how you control it?
Believing in progress does not mean believing that any progress has yet been made.Franz Kafka
Well a belated Happy New Year…
Or is just another step in the right direction. I knew I loved this image before I even took the photograph. Maybe I need to think more along the lines of seeing is believing. I often see what I have done but can’t believe that I did it.
If you look closely at the step you can see me clinging to the bottom step. Looking behind me to see that the tide is not encroaching me in the same way that my mind often does. You don’t see where the steps take you as I know not what awaits me around the corner. Returning to the tide that comes in and goes out. I guess I’m the same I will always take photographs just in different styles some in a high state of mind some in low state of mind either rough or smooth.
I seem to have many directions at the start of the year in front of me to help steady foot my way to the top of the stairs. Yet unlike last year, no clear goals. I have a busy month with an exciting opportunity in Colwyn Bay which is setting itself aims and objectives that can only challenge may vision and ethos for the good, while working in a totally new way. I have my work in the Galleri Open in Caernarfon at the end of this week. I also have some positive Filmic accessions to get excited about. oh and just reward in one area. I feel was disclaimed the attention it deserved by the powers that had more than enough opportunity than to just let it be!